Coping with new feelings

As i try to navigate my way through the endings i need to make happen, i am finding that i am experiencing feelings within myself that feel completely alien. My

Then and now

It has only been 6 weeks since Graeme and i got together, but already i know that the submissive i was with S is a pole apart from the one i am right now. Even

Acknowledging those difficult feelings

In many ways right now,  i am struggling to cope with the feelings that i have allowed seem to emerge from me. For so long, i have been the strong person, the one who busies herself for so much of the time; managing everyone’s lives, controlling, doing things for people. By giving in acknowledging m

The importance of reflection

During the 90's and early 00's nursing was obsessed with the process of how nurses were able to refect on their practise. Models of reflection were developed by

New day

Isn't it odd that on one day we can feel so down and almost despondent and the next, pretty much on top of the world. Well maybe not on top, since today is a wo

A big step

Last weekend, I took a big step and did something i didn't think i would be able to. i took a man who is not my husband into my marital bed. What is more,  i m

orgasm control

i have willingly given up control of my orgasms. Able to choose for myself, given free rein and feeling a little horny. If i was in the right place at the right time, i would usually go for it. Hell it is an extremely pleasant experience and what girl would turn it down? Especially if … Continue rea

So, a month on

I have so much to write about, the posts and the experiences that have gone with it are mixed up in my head.  Over the coming days I will separate them out

Sore feet

We must have walked miles. Well who knows if we really did, but around the streets of the City of London it seemed quite a long way. My boots which, suited my s

Connection and worship

Last night I asked New Dom what I should call him here. We discussed Gadget Man, but I know he wasn’t keen on that in the first instance and any way he is way more than his various toys. So we have settled on my calling him Graeme, which as it happens is his name. … Continue reading "Connection and