Masters Pleasing Bitch

On 21st of April it will be the 2nd anniversary of my first post. i started this blog to document a personal journey and for the first few months that was exact

In many ways right now,  i am struggling to cope with the feelings that i have allowed seem to emerge from me. For so long, i have been the strong person, the one who busies herself for so much of the time; managing everyone’s lives, controlling, doing things for people. By giving in acknowledging m

It would be true to say that if someone had asked me two years ago if i was someone who found worshipping a man's cock an attractive prospect, i would have laug

During the 90's and early 00's nursing was obsessed with the process of how nurses were able to refect on their practise. Models of reflection were developed by

Isn't it odd that on one day we can feel so down and almost despondent and the next, pretty much on top of the world. Well maybe not on top, since today is a wo

The happiness I have been feeling for the past few weeks will not last. The reality is that for both of us, what we have is a gap filler. For me, it hopefully helps me finally end the relationship I have been in for all these years but which if I let it would slowly … Continue reading "Feelings"

Don't you just love blogger? Somehow this morning i wrote pretty much half a post and then suddenly it was gone - auto save apparently not working. So, no doubt

Last weekend, I took a big step and did something i didn't think i would be able to. i took a man who is not my husband into my marital bed. What is more,  i m

I have so much to write about, the posts and the experiences that have gone with it are mixed up in my head.  Over the coming days I will separate them out

Something funny is going on in my brain, in my subconscious. I keep finding myself thinking and even dreaming things where I convince myself that the changes that need to happen in my life have already happened. This morning I woke from the most amazing sleep thinking that I had told hubby about Gra