“It is always by way of pain one arrives at pleasure.”
Marquis de Sade
The picture above probably wouldn’t look to most as if it involves pain. Indeed individually the nipple clamps and suction device would have provided discomfort rather than pain. What’s more, both have the effect of causing arousal as well as a modicum of pain. Even though you might not think so I think this image sums up my relationship with pain. In that I am not a masochist for the sake of receiving pain. But rather I like pain as part of experiencing other sensations.
Before
I didn’t know much about pain before hand. I certainly never associated it with pleasure, sexual or any other. But once I started to read about discipline and impact play along with other elements of BDSM, I felt it might be something I’d want to try. With the right person. I found S and he was more about bondage than impact play, although he had his moments. It wasn’t until I met Master that I started to learn the meaning of pain and how it can lead to such pleasure.
New Experiences
Master isn’t exactly a sadist, which is just as well because as I said above I am no masocist. Having said that I have a relatively hight pain threshold. Part of that might well be the ‘training’ Master put me through from early on.
From our first play date Master introduced me to lots and lots of sensations, both one after the other and simultaneous. A butt plug, a dildo, restraints, the violet wand, a vibrator, a flogger and so on. Some sensations on their own bear no pain but in combination they really do. Indeed multiple orgasms in themselves can be painful in their way.
More recently
It’s been a while, but more recently we have concentrated on impact play rather than other things. Partly because much of our play times have been when we have been in public places or in dungeon rentals. In those places Master gets to try out his large array of implements – soft and fluffy to hard and barbed wiry. Over a session I find that I can take quite a bit of pain and I know he enjoys giving it to me. That too turns me on. I knowing the pain receptors in my brain consider impact play arousing. I can’t work out how they do, but they just do. So a message gets sent to my cunt and by some miracle I’m wet. I still find all of this confusing but mostly don’t worry about it and instead enjoy.
Let’s hope there is more pain and pleasure to come again soon!
