Exposed in a public place

It’s winter and generally at this time of year I like to wrap up to keep warm. Master has no problem with this when we are out and about. But looking back at some photos from our holiday in Spain last Easter time, I must admit I am looking forward to wearing fewer clothes. Looking forward too, to following Master’s preference that his slave wears no underwear under her clothes. Looking forward to those opportunities when, I can expose my bare bottom to him in a public place!

Cooling off

It is not unusual these (menopause) days to feel the need to push the duvet off of me so that I can cool off. In this photo too, I love that you can see 3 of the sings of my status as slave to Master – collar, cuff and nipple piercing. 

A favourite old photo

In Molly’s post today for February Photofest she uses a photo from a previous blog post. Sometimes a photo can bring back some wonderful memories and is worthy of showing again. Molly has given this a title of Throwback Thursday, a title previously coined by Penny.

This seems a great idea for lots of reasons. Of course, you could call me lazy and of course I am, but also this is one of my favourite blog photos.

The original post, for last year’s Photofest on my blog was called Masturbation, which is exactly what I was doing, over a mirror.
The photo came about because I had found a photo of a girl doing exactly that, for the masturbation month of May.  I posted it on my blog (which at the time was elsewhere, but has been copied across to here).
Master was at the time in the USA, enduring what later transpired to be a difficult time with his then slave. At that time, I didn’t truly know what I was involved in, I am not sure he did either. 
He challenged / instructed me to take my own photo in that pose. Personally I think that my attempt was better than the original. What I do know is that he loved it and that it was one of the things that helped him through that troubling time. I will always be grateful that I was willing and able to follow his instructions and that we came through that time together and are still Master and slave. 

Love and relationships – 2 years on

Today’s 365 question is: Who is the last person to tell you they loved you?

This is a happy coincidence since it coincides with an anniversary. It is two years ago tomorrow since Master and I met in person for the first time. We had only been chatting for a week or so before hand and neither of us expected that two years on we would still be going strong. Neither of us were looking for love, or a long term relationship.

We seem to have found both.

Master was the last person to tell me he loved me and while it is not something he says every day, I know that he means it.

The past two years have given us some amazing experiences, they have taught us both what we want and need from a relationship and have probably taught us more about each other and ourselves than we ever imagined.

The early days were about exploration, of each others bodies and minds but also about the psychology of Dominance and submission. We had some fun times during that first year, but they were balanced by the other relationships in our lives at the time. We knew quite early on, even if it wasn’t clearly articulated, that what we had was special, but there were other considerations. His relationship with another, the remnants of my marriage, the needs of my parents.

This second year has been completely different. While responsibility to family has remained, the other relationships slipped into the past. We have travelled and we have had lots of fun. There have been new experiences and others where one or other of us has re-discovered and shown each other things from the past.

This has not been a year of overt kink, the kind that people write and talk about. But it has been one of great discovery. It has been a time when we have truly discovered what our Master / slave relationship means to us. We have discovered the importance of the way in which power in this relationship is exchanged. We have discovered just how important my submission is to him and his dominance to me. The collar is fundamental to our lives, as are the piercings. But also we have found that love can be something deep and meaningful and something that we didn’t expect.

We are grateful for this last two years and are now planning for more. Now we are talking about living together and who knows, in year 3 that might happen.

365 Questions – Day 28

Tomorrow I will…………..


See Master.

More than that, we will eat dinner – I am planning a lamb casserole in the slow cooker. We will drink wine and I hope that we will spend some time rediscovering my submission. I hope that He will exert Himself as Master of me – this girl – His slave.

This will be our first ‘normal’ weekend since way before Christmas.

This is our opportunity to rediscover the things about our relationship that are important to us.

Ideally I would like to wear some sexy and kinky clothes and to be made to kneel before Him. It has been too long since we played together. If not tomorrow, then soon.

 

 

365 days – Catch-up for 23rd – 25th January

I am back from my wonderful, but short trip to Spain, and am pleased to say that Master is also home.  I arrived in Spain just before 9pm on Friday and we left on the ferry on Saturday evening, arriving at Master’s house late last night. Today I have been working and am looking forward to a quiet evening watching TV, surfing the net and maybe chatting to Master later. While I was away, our wifi connections both in the hotel on Friday and on the ship was intermittent to say the least. So, here is a catch up and in the coming days I will update a bit more on the fun we had at the weekend.

Saturday 23rd January – What made today unusual?
Having checked out of our hotel on Saturday morning we headed to a nearby costal resort, Suances to see what was there. We were pleasantly surprised to find that the earlier clouds were clearing and the temperature had risen significantly. We strolled along the promenade by the sea, took some photos and then decided to stay there for lunch. We sat in the sun and ate a lovely salad, which we washed down with some beer and wine. It was a lovely way to spend few hours on a late January day and something that we can’t do here.

Sunday 24th January What are you looking for from life?
The main thing I desire in my life is a man who desires me and who wishes to own and control me. I seem to have found just that. I love the fact that he finds me sexy, and that through him I have discovered my submission. He in turn is happy that the power belongs to him and that I am his slave. Everything else that happens feels like a bonus right now.

Monday 25th January What is your favourite thing to drink?
I have a few favourites when it comes to drinks – I love coffee in the morning, but try to restrict this to weekends and the occasional coffee shop treat. When I am really thirsty, I love an ice cold sparkling water, perhaps with a little squeeze of lemon or lime. Alcohol wise, I love a gin and tonic or a glass or two of wine. My favourite wine is Sauvignon Blanc.

365 Questions – 22nd January

Tomorrow will be better because…….

I will be waking up beside Master.

We spent over 3 weeks together, pretty much not out of each other’s sight for all of that time. Now we have spent 13 days apart and I know which I preferred.

Today will be busy: First I need to go and get weighed at my slimming club and then I will come back, make sure I have everything and head off to my mums. It seemed mean not to offer to take her for her regular Friday shopping trip, but I have moved it forward to this morning. Then we will grab a quick lunch somewhere, I will drop her home and drive over to Master’s house about 30 minutes away. I plan to leave  my car there, so I have it for Monday morning and then get the train to the airport. My flight leaves at 6pm and I have worked out the timings and ordered my train ticket in advance.

By 9pm (they are an hour ahead of us) I will be with Master in Spain and we will head to our hotel.

Tomorrow we will be able to sleep in, and if there is no sex tonight there will be sex in the morning. There may be orgasms for us both and much more.

Tomorrow I will get the chance to reaffirm my submission to my Master and I look forward to that.

Reflections on the past – My submission today

Master has frequently looked back on my blog and reminded me of things that I have written. He is quite a reflective person, and while I am too, he often sees things that I maybe don’t. 
This week we have been discussing my submission. This is the first time since May 2014 that we have been apart for this length of time. While it has been difficult to manage the lack of physical contact we have texted and have spoken every evening on Skype. What it has done though is give us the space to think about our relationship on a deeper, Master / slave level. 
For many months we have in the main lived relatively vanilla lives, going about our business, enjoying our social life and holidays. Sex is always pretty kinky and there is always an undercurrent of M/s. The S/m side has taken something of a back seat in the main, mainly because of his shoulder problem which I am glad to say is now resolved. We are both keen to reenergise that part of our relationship along with redefining the Master / slave dynamic. 
The other evening when we were chatting, he pointed out that I was touching my collar a lot.  Thinking about it, that is something I do a lot. I love to feel the metal around my neck as well as the cuff on my wrist. I have rarely removed either since he gave them to me. 
he reminded me last night of something I said when we first met. I struggled to find it, and of course He went to it and pointed it out. It comes from 4th February 2014 as I analysed our first play date. Below is the full post:


I don’t know how things will pan out with this new Dom or if we will play more than a few times. i don’t know if the special person will be him or another. What i do know is that i seem to have restarted the journey that stalled months ago. 
Over the last few months with S, we had some fantastic times. The kinky sex we had (much of it described here) was fantastic. The submission was in the moment and was really good. But i wasn’t truly submitting to anyone. At the time that was fine, right for where i was and where he was.
Now though i feel differently. i kind of feel liberated by the fact he has another and i have made the decision that whatever happens there is no going back to that or to him.
i am thinking about submission a lot. i am considering even what it might be like to give up more control, even perhaps to enter a Master / slave relationship. That’s not to say i ever would, but i am giving it some thought and in a considered and serious way.
The playdate on Sunday put me in a good place, and rather than drop, i have kind of stayed there. Not on the high that all of those orgasms gave me. But in a place where my submission has come to the forefront and is just there, kind of so i can touch it.
The playdate on Sunday put me in a good place, and rather than drop, i have kind of stayed there. Not on the high that all of those orgasms gave me. But in a place where my submission has come to the forefront and is just there, kind of so i can touch it.


The part he keeps returning to is as the end of my post, where I talk about the fact that my submission  is such that I  feel that I can touch it. Somehow, needing the physical reassurance of my submission by touching my collar and the way in which we remind each other of our place in this relationship are both ways in which I feel my submission. For him it is about feeling the power of his dominance and seeing my  submission. It offers us confirmation that however we live our lives and whatever gets int he way of being able to play and have kinky fun, we are and always were Master and slave. That I was his submissive from the start.


So, while this isn’t really a difficult problem in the big scheme of things the world faces it is something that we feel is important. As such, I offer this post as Day 20 of 365 days – What is the hardest thing you are dealing with?


That shows just how good life is right now I think!

365 Questions – January 18th

The best part of today was………….


There were a couple:
Receiving this text from Master this morning at 10.37 – 
Plus being told by a couple of colleagues at a conference today that I look good and being asked if I have lost weight!

Needy

It has been 8 days since she felt His hands on her body and 9 since He permitted an orgasm. It will be another 6 days until she will see Him again and can feel His hands on her and hear Him tell her that she is His.


She walks slowly up stairs and finds the plug. Of the two available she choses the larger.

She removes her jeans and panties, and bends over and presses it against her anus. There is resistance, it has been a while since this larger piece of metal has been inside her.

She realises that she is trying to push it in upside down, she swivels and, with a push it slips into place.

She remembers that His desire for her to wear this plug is with good reason.

She lies down on the bed and observes herself in the mirror. Slimmer than before, but certainly not where she would like to be. She photographs the evidence, the bush that He likes so much.

She opens her legs and turns on the vibe. Tonight there is no need for internal penetration, what she needs is to feel the pulsating instrument on her clit, vibrating from her piercing, it will find its own way inside. She applies direct pressure and spends some time just enjoying the pleasure.

She knows that any orgasms do not belong to her, but she also knows that Master won’t deny this pleasure. She knows what she needs to do and to say.

Gradually the tell tale signs build within her. She arches her back, and moves towards the pleasure that awaits. She knows she much be patient, and that her time will come. Well, not her time but His. The vibrations hit her body and reverberate around her neediness, she waits patiently and then just as she knows that the orgasm is imminent she speaks aloud.

This is yours Master.

Out loud she tells Him “thank you Master” and she knows that while He is not with her, He knows that his needy girl has been satisfied. For now.