I’m not good at taking compliments from people, I never have been. When people tell me I look good and I don’t think I try to make excuses as to why they think I do. And when someone tells me I look well I assume it’s because I look fat and healthy. At work I’ve learned to take compliments better, because at last I know I do a good job. So why am I unable to just take a physical compliment and move on?
Take this image, captured on the balcony of our apartment on a hot summers day. I’m not sure why I have no underwear on. Perhaps I’ve been posing or else, maybe we are about to have sex, who knows? But I’ve had this photo and not used it. In fact I stored it and thought I’d never want to use it, because I am and look pretty fat. That was the size of my middle at the time and I hate it. Therefore if you compliment me on the overall image, I’ll say, but I look so fat. Which is in fact what happened when Master sent it to me on WhatsApp.
But while thinking about todays Feb Photofest image and the Swap With Floss prompt about compliments, I knew it was the perfect picture to post today.
Because if Master feels I am worth looking at, complimenting on and taking my photo then who am I to argue. If he says I am attractive, then to him I am. Self image and self worth are tough things to manage. But sometimes we just have to take the compliment in the way it was meant.