I’ve fallen out of love with my blog a bit. Struggling to find anything new to say I’ve decided to keep quiet. With no photos to share, I’ve decided not to join in with Sinful Sunday. Usually that would be the one time in a week you could expect a post. Don’t get me wrong, life is good but it just isn’t very sexy.
I’d usually expect an increase in libido now that summer is here, especially as the weather is so good. But I have to be honest I’m not massively feeling it. Interestingly I don’t think Master is either. We have had our moments, but they have been few and far between.
A few nights ago I had the urge to masturbate. Which brings me onto this week’s Quote Quest.
The only shame in Masturbation is the shame of not doing it well
Sigmund Freud
This week is a celebration week for LSB as Quote Quest is a year old. An anniversary worthy of celebrating, as it is no mean task to keep a meme going every week. Plus to find such great quotes as she does. Anyway, I digress.
It’s interesting isn’t it that we still think about shame when it comes to masturbation. I think it was a little engrained into me as a young person, as I have mentioned before. These days though I am proud to be able to masturbate for myself and for Master. There is also something thrilling about when I walk in on him when he is in full wank. Thrilling, but a bit disappointing if I am already in work clothes and should actually be doing something meaningful.
That night it was late. We’d had a few glasses of wine and I felt horny. On those occasions he loves to watch as I bring myself off. Usually with the wand as the orgasm is that bit more intense. He loves too to go down on me, to give me pleasure and to arouse himself. He is very much a morning person for sex, while I probably would favour nights, if I had a choice. Which often I don’t. Course that comes with the territory and that is ok. But the occasional nighttime wank of hot sex is a really good thing.
Master uses that element of shame in encouraging me to touch myself while he watches. It both thrills and makes me ever so slightly embarrassed, even now. Though it shouldn’t. But I have to admit I agree with Mr Freud in that if you are going to do it then do it well. Something I’ve become better at over time, even if I do say so myself. But I guess you get to know your body and your partners over time.
I also know me and my blog. It’s here and will remain. I feel less inclined to write about just anything, but want what I do write to have meaning. So, you might not see so many posts from me going forward. But if the mood strikes then, you probably will. Because just like masturbation, writing should be done well and not just for the sake of a good orgasm. Or maybe that’s where the two things diverge? I leave it to you!
As much as we try to get rid of this feeling of guilt by masturbating, it does not go away. And you always feel especially vulnerable in the presence of someone else. Perhaps somewhere in the depths of our souls this shame is rooted. It’s not just you and I that feel it. Many people say the same thing.
As for when and how much to write to you, I think you are able to decide for yourself. And it’s not a matter of quantity, but of quality. So yes, the choice is yours.
Delighted to see you back, Julie – I had wondered why you weren’t posting as much. I get the dips – I think Covid and the lack of clarity in life is def affecting things. I am startinbg to refind myself lately. I hope you do too x