Treatment plan

Yesterday morning, in my Wicked Wednesday post I wrote about the coming couple of weeks and my hopes for the impending surgery. In the afternoon I saw my consultant and now have the treatment plan.

Unfortunately the tumour is twice the size that showed on ultrasound. I was reassured it doesn’t mean it has grown that much over the past month. But that this kind of cancer is difficult to measure. This means I need a mastectomy rather than lumpectomy. 

The options for a breast reconstruction were explained to us. I am really not keen on having one largish breast and one completely flat area for ever more. So, I was hoping for a reconstruction at the time of surgery. However, the surgeon explained that the radiotherapy could damage a silicone implant. With a 40% chance of requiring further surgery because of this, we felt this was a no go. So, in a years time I will have a reconstruction by a plastic surgeon, that will take some of my own tissue to be formed into a breast. People, I get a tummy tuck too!! 

I have tried hard to be positive over the past month, since the biopsy was taken. But I feel the rug has been pulled from beneath me and I am struggling emotionally now. Thankfully, I only have till Monday to consider the decisions that have been taken. By that evening my right breast will be gone. I am luckier than most, I doubt many people have the library of photos we have of my breasts. But I don’t know how painful it will be to look at them afterwards. Especially in those first few days. 

I intend to try to be body positive about this and when the time is right I will show my body on my blog.

The road ahead will be challenging, but I have Master to support me and I have nice things to do. Today we leave for our music festival until Sunday and will return when I am well enough to do so. 

Thank you for the kind words of support here on my blog and twitter, it helps to be part of this wonderful community. 

15 Replies to “Treatment plan”

  1. Big hugs my lovely friend. I am sorry that it was larger than expected, I know that was not the news you were hoping for but I hope Monday comes and goes quickly and you can move forward into whatever comes next together.

    Mollyx

  2. I am somewhat embarrassed to admit that I have missed this news.

    I am so sorry this has happened to you and – as always – wish you all the best.

  3. I am so sorry the news was not good, that the operation will be so radical. I wish you all the strength you need and will be watching out for news from you after Monday. You are in my thoughts, Julie!

    Rebel xox

  4. so sorry to hear of your news Julie…enjoy your time away…you will be in my thoughts Julie….all the best for Monday…hugs to you.

    blossom xx

  5. Oh Julie – sending my support – my friend had a mastectomy ten years ago, then a reconstruction about 2 years after and looks wonderful today – sending good wishes your way – positive vibes too xx

  6. I am sending you a lot of positive energy .
    My sister , just 39 years old is fighting Exactly same form of cancer .
    You can always ask surgeron made a skin saving surgery . My sister gave such , it means surgeron Will left more of your own skin . They can do it .
    She is very happy over it .

  7. Oh my lovely, I am so sorry to hear all you have been going through. I’ll be thinking of you, and sending you all the support and gentle hugs I can.

  8. I am so sorry that I missed this when you wrote it. I hope that the operation was as straightforward as it cou’d be and am sending you hugs and thoughts for a speedy recovery ❤️

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