Friday 31st August was the last day in my job. I bought cakes and fruit for people in the office, went for lunch with colleagues and then sent my final emails. For the first time in my almost 38 year career I voluntarily walked from my workplace with no job to go to. 5 years ago I was made redundant, but within weeks I was working again. This time will be different, I am as yet undecided as to whether I want or need another job. What is more, I have made a deal with myself not to think about it until the new year.
This week we are in France. The weather is glorious, the days still a little longer than at home. We have nothing to do but be together and to remind ourselves of why we love just being together. On the spur of the moment we have extended our stay, because we can. We don’t need to be home till Sunday and neither of us has work or other responsibilities to pull us back yet.
The events of the last weeks – the move, winding down then leaving work – have sapped me of energy. I have struggled to feel sexy for my man even when he tells me how much he wants and needs me. I have slept alot this holiday and while awake Master has paid lots of attention to me and my body. Gradually I am beginning to feel human again and yes, a little horny. He asked me this morning how that manifests itself, and I had to think. It is a long time since I took the initiative, made it clear what I want. Now though maybe I am ready.
Our lifestyle to date has involved me working 4 days a week and spending those evenings alone at home, then us coming together for the weekend. Some Fridays I visit my mum and stay over. For months there has been work around the house, packing, decluttering. But now we have much more time to be together and make a life together.
What is clear is that certain elements of our M/s relationship which have been a little on the back burner will be able to come to the fore. We have been talking about our feelings, of ways in which his dominance and my submission is important to us. This is an evolving picture and something I will express here on my blog over the coming days, weeks and months. What I know is, for the first time I am putting me, our relationship and importantly Him first from now on.
Thanks for sharing this slice of your life.
This is so, so lovely . . . and so wonderful, for the both of you, that you are now in this happy and evolving place.
I’m looking forward to hearing more and more about your experiences.
Xxx – K
I have so enjoyed you telling us all about your changing life over the last few months and look forward to more in the future – good luck with your new life 😉 x
I can only imagine the peace that must slowly start to become part of your life now, to have nothing to push you but to do what you want, to be able to extent a stay just because you can, and of course, to be able to concentrate on your man and your M/s relationship. Thank you for sharing this 🙂
I hope with all the hard parts dealt with you can now relax and enjoy the excitement of the next step in your journey together 🙂
It sounds blissful and it makes me smile to see you two finally getting to this place together
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