Another Saturday and another day spent sorting and unpacking things in the summer heat. Settling in to my new life is going to take time.
On the whole, I am enjoying coming in from work and having my dinner cooked for me. No need to decide what to cook or eat, no worries. And yet, I am not sure that is how I want my life to be. Nor, will it be like this as we move forward. I had a slight moment on Wednesday when I panicked about having no role. But in truth it is part of readjusting to life as it is now. Anyway, within a month things will be different.
I am now in the final month of my notice period. I have begun to sort files, delete old stuff and tie up loose ends. Luckily the person taking on my job is someone I know and work with so the hand over should be straight forward. The good byes will be more difficult and the leaving do a little poignant. We are going to look at a possible venue after work on Monday, my birthday.
Moving on
This month really is one of good byes and moving on to a new life. Yesterday was my mother in law’s funeral. For the first time in 4 or 5 years, I saw my father in law and my ex’s family. While a sad occasion, as she died suddenly, it was also pleasant. I enjoyed seeing everyone and chatting to people I was once quite close to. I came away feeling that this was all part of ending my old life and moving on to the new one. Another part of settling in.
Perhaps things happen as they do for a reason.
So, to this blog.
For the whole time I have been writing it, the blog has been about a journey. About self discovery, about moving on and finding my place in the world. Latterly it has been about finding my slave place, about our sex and kink life.
There is still more of that to do, but this feels like a defining time for me. Will the focus of the blog change? Will I write about different things? What do I actually want to write about?
The past month has been a whirlwind of a time. We have been so busy that there has been precious little sex and kink. There has been no real time to write the blog, even if I had felt inclined. Now though I need to get myself back on track, probably through some of the memes.
Please though, dear reader, bear with me while I find my new place. While I am settling in to my new role, find time and the words to write.
I sense there will be exciting times and lots to say.
I do think things happen for a reason. Even though a sad event to bury your mom in law, it’s as if the universe gave you a moment to have a sort of ‘ceremony’ to say goodbye to your old life. I really look forward to your new life, to read about it, because I will always be here, following you ?
Rebel xox
I found a very profound saying yesterday and I couldn’t resist mentioning it to you. It goes, ‘I am standing in the ashes of who I used to be.’ I loved it, I hope you do to. We all reach milestones where something old ends and something new and exciting takes its place.
If you are not able to blog as often, I am sure everyone will be fine waiting for your wonderful posts. We want you to be happy.
Change can be cathartic and beautiful. It seems like you are taking that view and staying positive…good luck!
I really understand some of what you are feeling. Having changed my life completely four years ago. After finding my feet it became invigorating – I expect you will experience something similar too – good luck Julie x
I feel like you will find your new place and it’ll be comfortable and safe. I hope this transition period is seamless and things just fall into place