This is the third year that I have participated in Blogging A-Z. This year i am going to try to make my topics a little more mainstream. They will, however clearly link to kink and may on occasion be NSFW.
G is for Guilty Pleasures
For so much of my adult life, I had very little time for me. Being a wife, mother, employee, daughter and sister seemed to take up my entire time. The only time when I seemed to take a breath was at weekends and holidays. Even then, so much was packed in and still the caring element went on. Now, my life is different, but I still feel guilty doing things for just myself. Though I am learning not to.
What are my guilty pleasures?
The biggest one is my blog. Whole hours go by writing and editing, reading and commenting. Suddenly I realise that I haven’t eaten, or else done any of the other things I had planned. Less interesting things such as house work. As I write this, I have a niggling feeling I should actually have my vacuum cleaner out doing something far more productive.
Other guilty pleasures include drinking wine and eating good food, sometimes with Master and sometimes alone. Staying home when I feel I should be visiting my mother. The list goes on. But Master has taught me it is ok to put yourself first, so long as I also consider him and everything else in planning what to do.
How much time do I spend doing things for myself?
That depends on the day of the week and what else I have to do. On week day evenings I have from when I get home at around 6 to 10 when Master and I Skype together. If we are together, then that of course changes. But we usually take time to follow our own interests even then.
Until recently all of my days off were taken up visiting my mum and taking her shopping etc. Now she lives further away, I have cut the frequency but factor in an over night stay. So far this is working well and gives me the balance I need. At weekends Master and I are usually together, and try to balance being busy with down time. We both need our own space.
Do I feel guilty about time just for myself?
I consider devoting time to my own needs less and less of a guilty pleasure. It is what I and everyone needs to keep them happy, sane and well.