Excitement and fear

It’s a long time since I had a new D/s related experience. We are settled in our life together, and much of what we do around the D/s or BDSM area is tried and tested. In the main we keep that aspect of our lives separate from other people. This week we attended one of our local munches, we are acquainted with many of the people at that and other events. But we only know those people in a relatively vanilla place. We haven’t attended any of the events of which they speak. We haven’t been to play parties with them. Up until now we have kept ourselves just that little bit separate.Today that is going to change. For the first time we are going to a Clothed Male naked female event. In for a penny in for a pound! The idea of wandering around naked while Master is fully dressed in a suit is theoretically fine. But when the other females are also naked and the other males smartly dressed?

Will I be cold? Will I feel self conscious? Will I want to gaze at the bodies of the other women? What will we do while there? I am a bit nervous about my ability to experience too much in the way of play today, since I have been ill for much of the week with a virus and a cough. I am on the mend and no longer feel ill. But we both know that I am not fully fit at the moment.

He asked me earlier if I am going to make him proud today. I always try to do that and know that I will do my best not to let him down. I want to enjoy this new experience. I want to embrace the excitement I feel about going to this event, but I am also fearful. Those two feelings are not dissimilar in the way they manifest themselves inside us and time will tell which wins through. Whatever happens this will be an interesting day and there will be experiences to write about here. That can only be a good thing.

2 Replies to “Excitement and fear”

  1. Oh reading this blog and the previous one, I’m so gutted I cancelled our CMnf do we were going to in March. All your descriptions were exactly what was going through my head, and the follow on blog, about the event sounds like it was really fun.
    Where was it ? If we get the chance next year, I really want to go.
    But well done for making that big leap and braving your first event. I hope your Master was very proud of you. Xxxxx

    1. That was the one from last year. I lost my entire blog last week but have managed to retrieve some of the posts. Everything prior to March last year was backed up. I am sorry too that you cancelled, I will make sure I write about the event later this month. Hope you can come next time.

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