R is for reflections

Still a day behind, but I will catch this up tomorrow, Sunday is usually a no post day. It is a shame I didn’t get chance to write this yesterday, because that was the 5th anniversary of my first blog post. Actually that is not strictly true, for about 5 or 6 years before that I blogged. But about my job and experiences of working in the UK health system. That blog continued for a while after starting World of joolz, but looming redundancy and fear that the two blogs might somehow get mixed up caused me take it down.

When I started that work related blog there was no choice but to do so anonymously. A dim view was taken of people who wrote about their life as a nurse, or health service manager as I was doing. People were disciplined and sacked at that time. I was always careful to be discrete and to make it difficult for people to identify who I really was. My words were my own opinion, and they were about me and the challenges I faced. I tended not to assassinate the characters of others, that really isn’t my way anyway. It prepared me in any case for writing a sex / kink blog.

That first post on World of joolz occured just after my first full sexual encounter with a man who wasn’t my husband. It is full of hope for the future, but already acknowledges the  potential difficulties ahead. Challenging as it is to read about my hopes for that new relationship, I am glad I wrote. I can see how I have developed and grown as a person. How my sex life has changed and how I have learned about this lifestyle. And how it prepared me for the future.