What is the last major accomplishment you had?
There are a number of different parts to my life, so perhaps separating them out would be a good thing. Work wise, just when I was beginning to feel I needed a change of job, I (and colleagues of course course) were successful in a financial bid for funding for an important project. Lots of hard work has and will need to go into this on my part, but being successful made me feel really good.
Just a week or so ago, I cooked a Christmas dinner for 9 people. This was no mean feat as my kitchen is not the biggest. Plus I have had very little practise at cooking for more than 3 or 4 people in the past few years. There were moments when it all seemed to be going wrong but all came good in the end and everyone enjoyed it. On a similar (well Christmas related) note, I seemed to have been able to get a very Christmas averse Master to join in and enjoy my family time. That I am proud of, he might not agree!
This post was written on Monday, for Wicked Wednesday, however, I am currently without WiFi and am also unable open Rebel’s page. So am just posting it as an ordinary blog.
It was icy on Friday morning. Unusually I was working, but wanted to check into my slimming club to make sure that my festive weight gain was kept in check. As I dashed out after weighing in I went flying and landed flat on my back. I picked myself up and, slightly dazed walked a little gingerly to my car. There was no serious damage however, other than to my pride and luckily there weren’t many people around.
By early yesterday morning however, I was experiencing the full after effects – pain and stiffness in my back which while not acute was a little debilitating. In effect I struggled to turn over in bed and when I tried to sit up my tummy and back muscles decided to rebel. I was feeling about 90; what a start to the new year!
Master decided a back rub was in order and so I rolled onto my tummy and he began his work. He has a wonderful way of touching and massaging which is both relaxing and erotic. When you also have seriously knotted up muscles it is like you have gone to heaven. I could have laid there all morning. Suddenly he disappeared, returning with the magic wand. Applying it to my lower back and then gradually moving it around I settled down to enjoy the experience. Gradually my muscles seemed to relax and the aches and pains subsided (not that I had actually tried to move at that point).
Having finished this task he then decided to place the wand in between my legs. At this point I did roll onto my back and opened my legs to accept the wand onto my pubis and as close to my clitoris as I could get it. All discomfort in my back subsided as I felt myself growing wet, juices flowing freely. He counted me down an orgasm and even though he removed the machine before reaching 1 there was no stopping me. He asked what I wanted now, and I said “your cock”. He said that he would really like to take my arse, but felt that would be unkind as it would more than likely hurt. I was sorely tempted to offer it anyway, but knew there would have been little pleasure in it for me. He thrust into me as I lay in the missionary position and I wrapped my legs around him. He talked to me about the control he has over me and of the excitement he feels to be my Master.
I could feel myself creaming in a way that I don’t so often these days – blame the menopause – and for him that was even more of a thrill. He exploded into me soon after. Rather than settle into bed as he often likes to after sex he disappeared downstairs. Reappearing with two glasses of bucks fizz. Clinking glasses we wished each other a happy new year.
New year morning sex, a great start to 2017!
Are you content?
I can honestly say that I am more content now than I have been in my adult life. I am sexually fulfilled, and know who and what I am. I have a job I enjoy, though it is not without stress. I no longer have to worry about debt, but am self sufficient and can help my son when he needs it. I know that my son is happy in his life and that he has met the woman he loves. Master and I are free to travel where and when we want (within the constraints of my job). We are free to explore our kink as we wish.
On the flip side I have responsibilities to my mum and have to work hard not to feel bad when I don’t meet her expectations. I have to work when I would prefer to be having fun. I have an ex who is still a little more reliant on me than I would prefer (though there has been a marked improvement over the past few months).
Over all though I am extremely happy with my life right now.
What are you most grateful for?
I am grateful that I recognised that I needed to stop being there for others rather than for me. That while it is important to be a daughter, a wife, a mother, I also need to be me. I am grateful that I started to explore the side of myself that I had kept hidden and that I found my sexuality. I discovered that it is never too late to find yourself. I am grateful that Master and I have found each other and happiness in that discovery.
What is your number one goal this year?
This year I need to put my house on the market and get it sold. I need to start the process of divorcing my ex and move in with Master.
Major changes, but changes that are doable since this it is well over 4 years since I first told the ex that I wanted something other than him and 3 years on February 1st since Master and I met.
2017 is the year I need to complete the changes that started to happen in 2012.
2016 was a strange year. For the world it has been full of turbulence, a year when more than ever you got the feeling that people were unable to tolerate difference in each other. Where politics seemed to change course, so that the unexpected and feared became reality. A year when terrorism struck in new places as well as old, in summer and winter. When death showed no respect for talent, fame or fortune. In many ways I feel sad about the things and the people we have lost. I am sad that members of my own family can be so abusive about other people just because they look and dress differently. In the main I just ignore their social media rants. I am sad at the level of homelessness and poverty I see on a daily basis so close to my place of work. I am sad that people feel quite so anxious about the world we live in and that we are made to feel we have so much to fear from each other. I feel sad that we seem to be governed by people who have no understanding of the way in which ordinary people live and appear not to care about them. I feel sad that the world is not the place that perhaps it could be.
But those are external things and while we have to exist in the world we also have the opportunity to make our own happiness. So, I face this year 2017 with hope and expectation that things can only get better, if indeed they really are that bad. My list of good things for 2017:
- Master and I are healthy and happy and are looking forward to an increasing amount of time together. I will sell my house this year and hope to be living with him by the end of this year.
- We have plans to travel more this year. On Tuesday we are off to Brussels for a few days and have plans for a summer holiday on the Canal du Midi in France. I am sure there will be other places that we will visit too. Some here in the UK and others further afield.
- My mum remains healthy and is now expressing interest in moving house and downsizing. This might even result in her being less dependent on me as there are suggestions she may move closer to my brother. But we will see.
- My son has today announced his engagement to his girlfriend. They moved into their own home a week ago, having rented for the past 18 months. I can’t describe how happy it makes me feel that he is settled in his life.
- Hopefully this year will see Master and I spread our kink ‘wings’ a little. We intend to go to some play and other events and in March we will be attending Eroticon. I am particularly keen to develop my blog, to branch out a little into areas that I haven’t tackled. While it is great to write about real time events and happenings in our sex and kink life, I would like to write more opinion based posts as well as branching into fiction. Plus I am keen to meet more like minded people and to be able to have discussions in real life. Hopefully Eroticon will give us that opportunity.
- I plan to join in with many of the memes that circulate our part of the internet and this year to complete the February Photofest and maybe the A-Z of blogging again. I am going to start to plan ahead and devote more time to writing.
Most of all, I intend to live my life to the full. To try to lose more weight, to get fitter, to travel, have fun and enjoy life. I intend to embrace the happiness I feel today and to have as much kinky sex as our ageing bodies will allow us to enjoy!
That’s what Master said when he saw the photo I planned to post. I was going to give it the title ‘champagne’ but actually it might be Prosecco! Anyway Cheers and Happy New Year!!