TMI Tuesday – July 19th 2016

My first TMI for a while, but glad to join in and share
1. Hi there. Tell us about your job and what you do?
I work in the UK health service. My job is about improving the quality and value for money of maternity services. I work with Doctors, midwives and families who use the service so while I no longer provide healthcare services myself, I am close to them. It is less stressful and definitely easier on the body than when I was nursing.
2. What piece of advice would you give to a co-worker?
Remember who we are here for – not ourselves but those who use the services. But remember we are not indispensable, there is nothing in our job that can’t be left till tomorrow. 
3. What 2 pieces of advice would you give to a new blogger?
Decide what your blog is about and who you are writing for.  Write for yourself and not an audience, and the followers will turn up and contribute. Visit other blogs and comment there, become part of the ‘community’
4. What 1 piece of advice would you give to a veteran blogger–someone blogging for more than 3 years?
Consider the purpose of your blog, at the start and now. Keep things fresh and don’t just post for the sake of it.
5. What do you hope visitors to your blog see, take away, feel or learn?
I  hope people see that I am honest and open and that I am true to myself as a woman, and a slave. I hope that people are able to take something away for themselves, but that they recognise that my relationship is not necessarily theirs. 
6. Have you ever had something happen to you that you thought was bad but it turned out to be for the best?
I thought that Master’s former slave finding out about my blog and muscling in on my place in the world would be the end of my blog. But actually it had a very different effect on our relationships than I might have imagined. 
Bonus: What was the last experience that made you a stronger person?
The past 2 years have been a massive learning experience – the loss of my dad, my mum’s health problems and subsequent coming to terms with them. But mostly the realisation that I can have my own life with Master which is not dependent on the expectations of other people.
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A reconnection

The trip to Sicily was amazing, but it was busy. We walked and walked, often up hills or steps, and we saw so many amazing things. We drank wonderful beer and wine and ate some amazing meals. But most nights we fell exhausted into bed (often it was a different bed from the night before) and in the morning got up early enough to grab breakfast before moving onto the next wonderful place.

We had a lovely weekend in Agrigento, in an apartment. For 3 days we were able to come and go, eat and drink what and when we wanted (mainly simple breakfasts of fruit and yoghurt plus good coffee with hot milk!) and know that no one was going to want to come in and clean the room (or whatever). We had our busiest day while there, when we went to visit the Greek temples. It was hot and very sticky, and the day was a long one, we walked miles, including in the evening since the nearest restaurants were half an hour away (on foot, as we wanted to be able to have wine etc with dinner). The next day though, which was Sunday we went to the supermarket and bought food and wine for dinner so that after an afternoon of sightseeing we were able to grab some down time.
At the end of the following week we found ourselves at a wonderful, very classy hotel in Palermo. Here we experienced a little bit of luxury; lovely breakfasts over looking the sea, drinks and nibbles on the patio and a couple of hours by (and in) the pool. But the hotel was quite a way out of town so we needed to use the hotel shuttle or a taxi (as previously mentioned we only walked it once!) to go anywhere and once out in the morning preferred to stay out until after dinner.
We returned from holiday invigorated, and probably fitter. I put on 3lb, (probably due to beer, crisps, nuts and olives which we tended to eat at lunchtime since they came with the beer), but have already lost 2. The holiday was active, but not tiring even though we were busy. What we didn’t have much time for though was sex or any real opportunity to play. I mostly wore underwear, to prevent chafing and other effects of 30c (and higher) heat.

Then last weekend we were also busy with a concert on Saturday and then a friend visiting from Holland Sunday and Monday. We had a lovely time showing her more of London and on Sunday we had a lovely meal in a family run Italian restaurant, thank goodness such places still exist in London. The train home on both nights was around 11pm.

During the week we expressed our frustration about how the M/s side of things seemed to have been lacking for us both. For me it felt that I was failing as His slave in some way, and he expressed to me that perhaps he wasn’t doing his job as Master well. However the reality is that we are experiencing real life. You can’t have it, well not all of the time.
This weekend has been different. We have had plenty of time to spend having sex and in rediscovering my submission and His dominance. I have been on my knees for the first time in ages worshipping Master’s wonderful cock. There has been plenty of sex, many orgasms and a lot of time just reconnecting with each other. We have also had time to sit and do very little, I have left him to some clearing out while I went to the sales in town. He has cooked for us, and then we have walked to the pub. We have spent time talking about our holiday, remembering places, people and the wonderful things we did and saw.
We have taken tim to rebalance and reconnect and our relationship is all the better for the opportunity to do just that.

Bad slave?

There is no doubt that I have come a long way in the past two years.

I know that I am a happier person, someone who no longer needs to control every aspect of their life. Indeed, I would go further than that and say that I prefer to control very little of my life, but do what I must. 
I have learned to let go of so much, to allow someone else to decide where I go, what I do and how I do it. 
Sometimes though I rebel and revert to some of my old ways.
The other day when out for dinner I complained when Master made a decision about dinner on my behalf (for my own good of course). On holiday I started to doubt his ability to guide us to our hotel on foot (it took an hour to get there).  I know I answer back and I often break the rules we agreed 2 years ago.
But does that make me a bad slave? Does that mean I am not a slave at all?
I don’t believe it does.
I am a person who needs control, but also needs the opportunity to push against that control. 
I am a person who needs to know that someone is in control. I am still learning that it isn’t desirable or necessary that I have to be that person. That giving up control makes me feel liberated and the person I want and need to be.  
Master doesn’t want to micro manage me and I don’t want or need that micro management. I think that he needs to look back at where we were and where we are now.
He needs to see how far we have come and reassess.
I am not a bad slave. He is not a bad Master.
We are two human beings learning to navigate our way through life, a life where we and the world around us changes. Where sometimes we get it right and sometimes we get it wrong.
But what I do know is that we are two people who happen to be Master and slave. Two people who love each other.
Bad slave? No
Collared slave who is sometimes bad? Yes!

Hiatus

Our trip to Sicily was wonderful. There was so much to see, great food to enjoy, wine and beer and of course gelato. We walked miles and miles, often uphill or up or down stairs, given the way that towns are layered. We learnt so much about the history and culture. 

As is often the case, our trip wasn’t particular kinky, indeed there wasn’t a great deal of sex. But I am not complaining, not at all. 
I have returned to work this past couple of days and am concentrating on getting through the rest of the working week. I feel calm and relaxed and just happy.
I don’t yet feel ready to blog in any significant way and judging by my blog roll quite a few people are taking a break too. I am here, and when ready I will blog again. Until then, I will post these photos.

Cathedral
Beach
Temple
Sunset
Mosaic of Adam and Eve