I seem to be in a chicken / egg situation. Right now, I feel as if I need help, support, attention even. What I can’t work out is this:
Is the neediness because I have so much going on in my life? Is it because I have begun to share my problems with another and let go of so much of the power and control? Is it because my submissive side is emerging and so I need the Dominant person to support me or else I feel I can’t cope?
Whatever the reason, this morning I woke feeling anxious and yes, needy.
For a reason, not yet clear, the time I thought I was going to spend with Him last night, didn’t happen.
This morning, as well as the anxiety I feel when He goes ‘off line’ as it were, I also feel as if perhaps I am too needy. I start to believe I need to pull back the control of myself, since this feeling is far too scary to cope with.
What is happening to me?