Sir’s girl

This is now written indelibly on the girl’s body, just above the little mound of hair she is growing for Sir. She will reapply the ink as it fades over the next few weeks.

Last evening Sir took this girl for His use. There was pain and orgasm.  He filled this girl’s holes and He fed her (and not just with food). He photographed the piercings that He owns.

They chatted, but at the same time, both were a little reflective. On His return, this girl wants to offer more of herself to Him and hopes He will take more control from her.

Tomorrow both Sir and this girl will be leaving the country, but to different places. This girl will be back on Monday and over the next few weeks, while Sir is away she will blog as she wants and needs.

Who are you?

This girl lay stroking His Cock while he played with her nipples. she had already orgasmed a number of times, giving him all that she had. She felt the need to cum rise up in her again and pressed herself against his leg. He told her to hold it. He began to count, not from 5 or 10 this time, but 20. All the time he played with her nipples, those very very sensitive pierced nipples. She let herself sink into her own subconscious. She stopped thinking, instead she listened to his voice, the counting. She was aware of his cock growing in her hand. She looked into his eyes. Just as she began to allow the orgasm rise in her at the count of 2 he said “one and a half”, but then 1 and CUM.

Who are you? He asked when she had given Him that huge orgasm and had on his instructions kept it coming.

Who was she?

This girl. she was this girl. she was also this slut, this bitch, this whore. She was His submissive. She is this girl.

He smiled. He loves the feeling of power this gives to Him. This girl likes to know that she had given herself, all of herself to Him. So much so, that at these moments she no longer has a name.

Sir doesn’t really think this girl is joolz any more. Not the joolz you read about earlier in this blog. she is inclined to agree. The changes have been subtle but they are visible all the same. Visible to this girl in her daily life. Visible to Sir when he talks to her, when they are out and about together. Perhaps they are less visible to the outsider but increasingly this girl feels her submission during her every waking hour. She seeks and finds a calmness that wasn’t there before. He says she is still a very different person when dealing with family matters, perhaps that is true, but this girl can feel a shift in the way she wants to handle that part of her life. She needs to feel this calmness much more. And she knows she will.

This blog is still called “The world of Joolz”. Yesterday,  I was doing a little bit of tidying up on the front page, rewriting some of the text in the side bar. I was tempted to change the name of the blog. I don’t feel like Joolz any more. However, its what others know me as, though some of you also know me as Julie. Plus, what does the name of the blog actually matter? Plus, if at times I have no name then it matters even less. What matters is who I belong to, and that part is pretty clear.

This girl’s submission

This has been a holiday weekend, plus, this girl has tagged a couple of extra days on so that she has a good break from work. That means that Sir and this girl have been able to spend 3 nights together.

This morning we lay in bed until very late. This girl commented on how calm she felt; how she is able to lie next to Sir and just be. Of course that being, involves Sir playing with His girl as He wants.  
This girl and Sir discussed recent blog posts, the effect of the piercings on her submission; they have made her feel her submission so much more. Sir likes this effect on this girl. This weekend has marked 3 months since Sir and this girl first met. It is also the last weekend that they can spend together for a while. This morning was important to us both, hence the reluctance to get out of bed. 
We discussed those first few dates and the way that Sir knew that this girl wanted to submit. The look He saw in her eyes and the feelings that this girl had during that time. We also discussed the fact that this girl thought she knew all about submission at that time but since then she has leant so very much.
What this girl knew about was sexual submission. Something important to both of us.  She knew about giving herself to a Dominant, however right then she didn’t know just how deep that submission could reach, how important it could be to her. She didn’t understand how important ownership of a girl’s orgasms were. How by giving up control could liberate her. She had no idea that it was possible to orgasm with little or no physical contact. She certainly does now.
In the past this girl has thought about piercings, however she had no idea that those piercings could take her deeper than she could imagine. That by admitting that they belonged to another they would give her a sense of fulfilment that she could only dream of. Being owned by another is so much more important to this girl than she knew. It is only a week since they were done, but already that much is clear.
But submission is not just about sex. It is about how an individual lives their life. Sir and this girl talked about the post regarding rules. Sir asked if this girl thought she needed more rules, perhaps tasks. But they agreed she does not. what she needs is to be able to live her life in the way that she knows Sir would be pleased with.  The rules don’t need to be created, they exist in this girl’s normal life. She knows how she should deal with situations at work and home, she knows the things she needs to do. Sir knows that too and by actually living in that way she knows that Sir will be pleased with her.
This girl faces a difficult few weeks. Sir will be away, He will be concentrating on the other important person in His life. This girl has had most of His attention for the past few months and now His attention must shift. This girl must be mindful of this and concentrate on being the submissive he wants and needs.  She needs to abide by the rules that are not actually articulated but exist. She must be His good girl. Only by doing these things will this girl be the submissive she desires and needs to be.

Liebster Award

I have noticed a number of blogs over the last few weeks who have been given this award by others who visit them. It is great when those blog owners then award to blogs that I am not familiar with – it is a great way to find new places to visit. Of course i love to visit some of the more established blogs too, to gain an insight from those who have far more experience than me. Thanks to tori from Pain’s Pleasure who has nominated me and who falls into the second category. She has been around for a long time and experiences, good and bad to share. Like me she blogs about what is in her head, whether that is about slavehood or life in general.

  • Thank the person who nominated you and post a link to their blog on your blog.
  • Display the award on your blog– by including it in your post and / or displaying it using a “widget” or “gadget”.
  • Answer 11 questions about yourself which will be provided to you by the person who nominated you.
  • Provide 11 random facts about yourself.
  • Nominate 5 to 11 blogs you feel deserve this award, who have less than 1000 followers. (Note that you can ask the blog owner this since not all blogs display the widget that lets readers know this information.
  • Create a new list of questions for the blogger to answer.
  • List these rules on your post. Once you have written and published it, you then have to :
  • Inform people/blogs that you nominated that they have been nominated for the Liebster Award and provide a link for them to your post so they can learn about it (they might not have heard of it!)
I am not going to actually follow the rules, since in truth rules are there to be broken. Of course, I am going to answer tori’s questions:

1)  How did you meet your significant other?

Sir and i met on the internet in a chatroom on Alt.com. We happened to live near each other and decided to meet for a drink as we got on well online. That was 3 months ago and so far so good.

2)  The best childhood memory? 
Family holidays with my parents and brothers. Great trips to France and to places in the UK. Trips to the homes of other wider family members and trips out with them. The downside was sitting between 2 fighting brothers in the car. But generally the experiences on those trips were good. Plus now I know that they provided some excellent memories to look back on.

3)  If you had to live somewhere other than you do now, where would it be? 
I would always choose somewhere near the sea. But for now where I am is fine. It is close to Sir and that is great after all of the travelling I did to visit S, even though he lived near the sea.

4)  Worst bad habit?
Not allowing people to finish what they are saying before I jump in. I am trying to be better at listening and trying to hold back in all areas of my life. It is a key behaviour change, part of my submission. 

5)  Favourite book?
I don’t have one favourite, but tend to find new books that are my favourite at the time. Most recently I would say was wild: a journey from lost to found by Cheryl Strayed. It is an autobiography of someone who walked the Pacific Crest Trail at a difficult time in her life. A voyage of discovery, a little different to my own, but one all the same.

6)  Any big ambitions that you have yet to achieve?
Just to travel to some new places and enjoy different experiences. Nothing huge, but important all the same.

7)  Name one guilty pleasure?
Probably wine. I do like a glass or 3 of sauvignon blanc…..

8)  Favourite film?
I am no film buff and until recently hadn’t been to the cinema much. I did enjoy Lincoln last year, and have also been enjoying some of the Coen brothers films. Otherwise it is films that provide memories: first film with my son – Jungle Book etc. Often I avoid seeing films based on books I have read; they can be so disappointing.

9)  If you could or wanted to change one thing about your partner, what would it be?
I wouldn’t change anything. I spent too much time trying to change my hubby and found that what I needed was to either change me or to get out. I am older and wiser now and I am just happy to go with his flow.

10) what would they want to change about you?
He is changing my behaviours in quite a few ways. They are ways in which I want to change, so no problem there. I am a calmer person now and perhaps that was one thing at the beginning he sought to change.

A few things about me:

  • There are few foods I don’t like, and will usually try most things. I hate peanut butter though
  • I love warm sunny places, but really can’t stand too much heat. Over 30c and I am heading for an air conditioned place to sit. Or perhaps the sea….
  • I managed to help my son develop a love of history by taking him to castles all over the south of England and in France as a child. He now has a degree in History.
  • I would love a garden full of flowers, but I get pretty bad hay fever which makes that difficult, plus I have never yet found the energy to actually create such a garden.
  • I have an uncorrected squint in my left eye, which makes depth perception difficult. I am rubbish at racket sports because of this and see double close up. Sometimes double vision is nice when you are looking at someone you care for!
  • I had a very difficult pregnancy with my son and was in hospital for weeks with pre eclampsia. It is the main reason I only have one child.
  • I don’t have lots of friends, perhaps I haven’t put enough effort in over the years. But I do have some very special friends, some of whom I have met through places like Fetlife. I would love to meet some of my blog friends.
  • I am still a registered nurse even though I haven’t nursed a patient for years. My favourite job as a nurse was when I cared for people with rheumatoid arthritis. Now a days I am happy in management. It is less demanding on the body.
  • I have another blog related to my work, though I haven’t updated it in a long time and feel more inclined to write about this side of my life right now than that.
  • I was the first person in my close family to get a degree, my son achieved a better classification than me though.

As I said, I am not going to stick to the rules. Most people on my blogroll have been given this award and have fulfilled this task if they wanted to. So I will leave it at that.



Sensations

Just over a week since the piercings were done and the initial pain and discomfort has settled. Well as far as the clitoral hood goes, there was very little pain once the little bar was in place. The nipples have been a different thing entirely. But even they have settled.

The area around the nipple, the areola, has been a little swollen meaning that the nipple itself looked less proud. But that also seems to be settling down. Giving the opportunity for some gentle play.

Sitting on Sir’s cock yesterday, this girl began to get a feel for just how much these piercings are going to be able to enhance her sexual pleasure and of course the satisfaction He feels. When this girl is penetrated, the little bar in the hood presses onto her clit and gives her the most amazing feelings of arousal. Put that together with a few nipple strokes and this girl is almost begging to cum.

This morning He spent some time just stroking gently, teasing her. She struggled to contain the urge to cum until given permission. He told her that she was one huge erogenous zone.

This girl is sure He is thinking of what He can do to her once she is completely healed. What jewellery they can use and what He can attach to them.

With summer coming, this girl is already looking forward to being out with Him, wearing no underwear. Wondering how He plans to play with her at these times and how the piercings will be involved in that.

It is clear to us both that the level of submission this girl can get to is enhanced by the insertion of a few little pieces of metal to those special places. This girl knows that she will be able to use this to help her remember who and what she is when things get difficult. Plus Sir knows He is going to be able to use them to get this girl into a very good place indeed with very little effort.

So far this feels like a win win.

The need for rules?

This girl has been wondering about rules, about whether she already has any and whether she needs any more (if she has them in the first place).

Why don’t you know if you have any? You may well ask (and probably are asking). Well it kind of isn’t like that. No rules as such are imposed. But over the past 3 months (yes it was 3 months yesterday since Sir and this girl met in person for the first time), subtle changes have taken place. Sir has exerted his Dominance over this girl and she has complied with his wishes (sometimes more readily than at other times).

Firstly there was the ownership of orgasms – this girl firstly should ask to be granted an orgasm and then she must tell Him that it belongs to Him, even if He is not present. Generally this girl needs few orgasms if he is not around, but if she does she complies with this rule. Of course in His presence, she asks if in a position to do so (i.e. able to speak) and likewise gives it to Him.

Next there was the whole third person thing. This girl thought perhaps He had done a little mad when He made this request. He said He felt it would help with this girl’s submission. She thought that unlikely and anyway couldn’t imagine doing it. Now, she writes this way most of the time, increasingly does when they are together and amazingly has started to think in that way A LOT of the time.

Then there is how this girl should refer to Him. Standard stuff – the Sir thing. Is this a rule? Not really, but this girl is increasingly comfortable with it. There are times increasingly when He is Master. He sees himself as this girl’s owner and so is her Master. Sometimes also He likes to be referred to as Lord. This girl can never quite tell if he is joking or not, but is not about to start calling Him Lord when they are out and about. Sir, on the other hand will happen pretty soon.

There are issues of behaviour. Of this girl remembering her place and role when she and Sir are out together. There are still signs of Julie coming through – of trying to take the lead. But fewer. This girl is much more comfortable with this, so much so that at times she likes him to order for her completely. She is less worried at knowing exactly what they will be doing and where they will be going. She trusts Him and wants Him to take control much much more in this way (please).

Lastly (i think), there is hair. He requested that this girl doesn’t completely shave, but leaves a small ‘bush’ for Him to play with and wipe himself on (though He hasn’t done the latter yet). This girl has happily complied and the hair is starting to return nicely to the area that He marked out.

No this girl doesn’t have or need rules……does she?

Selfie

It would be true to say that this girl is somewhat proud of the state of her tits – still pretty pert at the age of 51 and 9 months. This girl thinks these piercings will bring a whole new dimension to her life. Looking good 6 days after the event!!