Blue

I’m feeling a little bit down. We had an amazing weekend in Amsterdam, catching up with our friend. But, because of the snow here and in the UK we are stranded for a third night. After booking out of our lovely hotel this morning we spent some time in the Rijksmuseum 

While we got out fill of culture, outside there was something of a whiteout. Checking the airport website we were reassured that while many flights were cancelled, ours was going ahead. The first sign of trouble came as we went to the gate for boarding. The flight was delayed for an hour. We had been lounging; eating and drinking since arriving at the airport. So suddenly there was a shopping opportunity. Finally another hour later we boarded. The captain told us that we would be delayed another hour as the plane had to be defrosted!. 90 minutes later the flight was cancelled.

The up side is we have a bed for the night in a basic but comfortable hotel. The downside is that we don’t have a flight date or time. I should be at work tomorrow, but obviously won’t be there. While I feel a little blue I have some lovely memories of the weekend to look back on.

Blue

So to Sinful Sunday. We picked up a bath bomb in Lush yesterday. So after a long day of walking, dinner with our friend in Master’s favourite restaurant and time in a jazz club. We got back to the hotel and enjoyed this:

 

Sinful Sunday

Who am I?

A couple of posts that caught my eye this week cover the theme of using pseudonyms to blog. The first by Girl on the Net was about the extent to which your online persona is different from the real you. GOTN even describes herself as sometimes hating her online self. Real life is so much less exciting that the edited one you can create for others. More and better sex and someone who has all the answers. Plus, GOTN is a brand, for good or bad. Something she can’t quite escape, even if she wanted to.

The second was from Kayla Lord’s Smutlancer blog. Yesterday was the first time I visited that site and I found it full of useful ideas for the budding online writer. In the article – Do you need a pen name as a sex writer – she talks about creating an online persona. Finding the right name, making it sound real (or being GOTN for example). The post also covers the challenge of keeping your blog self separate from the real you – physically and emotionally. Social media has a habit of linking your online self to your real self if you let it. This is bad enough when work and home life comes together. But if you blog about sex and have a responsible job to lose and family who wouldn’t understand or approve separation is important.

So who am I?

I am not particularly creative, certainly when it comes to creating a fantastic pseudonym. My real name is Julie and I am Julie here. I am MPB because Master called  me that and it seemed like an appropriate name for a sex blogger. But if I were to write a book (unlikely I know), I could hardly use Master’s Pleasing Bitch as the author’s name. It seems a bit late to come up with a proper sex blog, author name now. Maybe the name isn’t so important, MPB is relatively catchy and those who know me (online or in reality) call me Julie.

But to what extent is the online Julie, MPB really me? At the beginning of the blog, I was starting a journey into a new life, I wrote about a different side to me. One I struggled to understand, but l knew I enjoyed. I wrote candidly about coming clean to my husband and the emotions that brought with it. During the months from November 2012 when I confessed, my blog self mirrored the real person. I struggled to cope with the emotions associated with infidelity, a shocked and devastated husband and knowing what to do about the mess I was in. When my relationship with Master started and I discovered my submissive self properly, I again wrote about my emotions. This blog was a place where I could come speak candidly in a way that I couldn’t anywhere in real life.

Almost 4 years have passed since then, and unsurprisingly our relationship is settled and routine. We have our sexy moments and I write about those. I rarely describe the emotional aspects of life, because I can discuss them in real time with him. While I show more of myself here than many do, I still seek to keep my online persona separate to the one my family and work colleagues know. It would be easier if I didn’t feel the need to do that.

What does that mean for my blog?

Increasingly I have come to rely on prompts from memes to help me decide what to write about. These are great in giving ideas and the topics are usually such that the scope for creativity is wide. I am trying to read more widely around the sex blogging and writing community and again this helps with material (such as with this post).

But I think it is time to try to be more creative. It is time to write more posts based on me, my thoughts and feelings but that push the boundaries of who MPB is.  This requires time and effort, something that I am willing and able to give. Over the winter I would like to try to create 1 or 2 posts a week. Ones that are either fiction, are about more serious topics within the kink world or make me think about myself. It would be so good if one day I could look at my blog and worry that MPB was just too exciting. And that I, Julie had a love hate relationship with her creativity and smugness.

 

TMI Tuesday – 5th December 2017

Sexy Specifics

Liz Lemon and Jack Donaghy. from “30 Rock” https://www.nbc.com/30-rock

1. What do you find sexiest in a woman?

I love women’s breasts. The shape of them, the hint of a nipple, a decent cleavage. Lovely!

2. What do you find least sexy in a man?

Feet generally, not too keen on anyone’s feet to be honest! 

3. Have you ever been the other woman or man? Would you do it again?

Yes. My ex had an affair early in our marriage. I didn’t like it and I regret that I did it to him at the end. I wouldn’t do it again nor would I want to be the other woman either. 

4. Who puts more into a romantic relationship you or your significant other?

I guess I am more overtly romantic. He says he isn’t but does some lovely things for me. But that hasn’t stretched to flowers – he claims it is due to his hay fever! 

5. Do you have a “work wife” or “office husband”?

No. I don’t really have close work relationships these days. My life outside is too important to me.

Bonus: Are you in a healthy relationship? What makes you think so?

I believe so, yes. We talk to each other, we like each other, we are happy together. We have plenty of sex and occasionally shout at each other. All of these things are pretty healthy in my book.

Bonus, bonus: Is the “work spouse” strictly a U.S. American anomaly (they do spend an insane amount of hours at work)? One study found 32% of Americans admitted to having a work spouse. I don’t think people describe their co-workers as such here in the UK. But some people do spend stupid amounts of time at work. I don’t do that and have no problem arriving and leaving on time!

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The power

Much of our sex happens in the morning. There are age related reasons for this, I think it is called ‘morning glory’. But also tiredness at the end of the day (mostly on my part I must add). The past few weeks have been a little lean on the sex front. Low level illness, tiredness, lethargy; we seem to have suffered from them all. This morning something different happened though.

I had been awake for a while, checking Facebook and twitter, reading the news. As he woke, I put my phone down, mainly because it was going to run out of battery soon. He grabbed his phone (what happening people we are), and looked first at the cricket news (a mountain to climb for England by all accounts). But then moved on to more interesting stuff. He moved my hand onto his flaccid cock and as he read / viewed his Tumblr feed I helped get things moving. It didn’t take long for it to spring to life, I kept going. Looking at me he told me that he wanted my cunt; music to my ears.

I was a little dry and tight as his cock pushed in. But with some lubricant spit all was well. It felt so good to be filled by his cock again. Just as I told him I didn’t need an orgasm he began his count down. After the count of 10,  it turned out I wanted and needed to cum. Moving on top of him I was permitted two more. He loves to be able to feel my tits, to play with my clit, to tease and to control me. Being on top is perfect for me too and gives the chance to alter position, get more or less penetration.

Snuggling up a few minutes later he told me how things had played out for him this morning. Having me get him hard and want him while he looked at porn made him want to take me. At that moment he just wanted to shoot a load into me. But once he began to push his way in and found me tight, as soon as he made me cum on command, the feeling of power and control took over. At the same time the submission, that sometimes feels so dormant, reappears with a flourish. That is our power dynamic.

Red Dress

Today we went to a club for a ‘fem sub’ social. The theme was more pantomime than Santa, but it was a bit of a last minute thing. I have always fancied wearing a dress like this, and now I have. The look was completed with hold-up stockings, heels and a just hovering over the bare bottom effect. We had a great time and I was more than happy with the dress.

Sinful Sunday

#SoSS – No 2

It’s been a busy couple of weeks so, while November was much better in terms of writing and posting, there is room for improvement. It has now been confirmed that rather than happening before Christmas, mum will move on 12th January. This means that the pressure is off and I will have more time for me and us in the run up to Christmas. I have loads of ideas for blog posts and want to join in on writing something for the Eroticon Anthology. I just need to crack on and devote time to getting things done. Now though onto the purpose of this post – #SoSS (Share our Shit Saturday) No 2.

MPB’s picks of the week

I can only imagine how difficult it must be to go through the writings of a sister who passed away a year ago. A wrote some amazing stuff on the blog she shared with M. I am so thankful that M is sharing some of A’s early work with us. I was particularly struck by this amazing post this week by Cammies On The Floor.

The Smut Marathon is something I would love to participate in, but am not sure I have the talent for. This is a 10 round writing marathon, which is being run and hosted by Marie Rebelle from Rebel’s notes. Probably time to just go for it!

Just as I was thinking about what posts to include, Molly from Molly’s Daily Kiss published this years Top 100 Sex Blog for 2017. I was thrilled to see that Kayla Lords is in top spot. Well deserved placings too for so many of my favourite bloggers. Maybe too, inspiration to actually write more so that some day I get nominated for something like this.

Mean time it also means that I can go and read some new blogs, since I don’t know everyone in the list. More material for next week’s post too!